OPINION ON YOUR BODY AND HOW COMFORTABLE YOU ARE WITH IT

Well, my body, before I start I might say as well that I am seventeen year old girl. And I just don’t think that many of the seventeen year old are happy with their bodies no matter how perfect it is, by saying that let’s begin :)

Ok, so I can’t say that I am happy with my body. I mean, I think I am healthy weight but I wish I would be skinnier, cause you see everything just turned into crap. When I was a little I wish I had more weight, cause I am totally skinny and then when I met the weight that I wanted, I just think it isn’t enough so I became a little fat. (just a little) but now I wish I am skinny again.. weird right?? I just wish that my thighs weren’t as big and my butt and my hips, but they say it just looks good on me, it is proportion to my height but for me NO IT’s NOT., but hey, it’s puberty for you :) And because it is school break, my body just feel crap now since I am doing nothing, I do not have enough time to do exercise, but I try to eat healthy :)

I’m not comfortable with my body. I hate how there is a big mirror in the bathroom that every morning when I have my shower I see my body and always think ‘why can’t I be as thin as some of the girls at school or the celebrities my age?’ It;s the impact of the media, they make all of us perceive the ‘perfect body’ as skin and bones. It’s disgusting but it’s true.

Random truth or dare questions

• If you could be anyone, who would you be? I would wanna be Audrey Hepburn, no more explanation.. you got that, right?
• What was one lie you told someone? I am sick but I am not, for what reason? gotta need to skip classes :)
• Have you ever cheated on a test? Sure, I’ll kill those persons who would have said no.. I mean, who wouldn’t? especially if you had an all nighters
• Can you continuously talk for 3 minute without stopping? yeah, totally.. I’m such a talkative and noisy person, and I talk with a passion :)
• Who was your first crush? I’ve had my first crush when I was 3 years old as far as I remembered, but I forgot her name though. And his family still lives at our old house, and I know that he migrated to Australia already.. aww.. first crush :)
• What is the strangest dream you’ve ever had? I always have a strange dream, but if I were going to pick one, probably when I am in a particular place with a particular personality then it will just change to another personality and place in a random. So strange ..
• What is the best thing about your life now? maybe it is being able to go to college at a young age. It is so awesome to be in a university at a young age and your classmates are 2 or 3 years ahead of you, it’s so cool and in fact you are in advantage, you could graduate so young and embrace your own life afterwards.
• What’s the best proposal have you ever heard about? if this pertains to me, then that would be someone would want to pay for my college fees and give anything that I want for no reason at all.. so good but hard to believe..
• If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live? I just want to stay in the US, I mean life there has already a safety net, do you know what I mean? Kids there could go to college, could finish school and so many other things. But I have heard US is also having some difficulties, most countries are.
• What is the meanest thing have you done in your life? probably you will hate me for this, but I’ve had a big fight with a bitchy girl and slap the shit out of her, and kick her ass off… UGGGHHH.. I’m ranging in anger whenever I remember this
• What is the most embarrassing you have ever done and what is the result? ok. here is the thing, I’ve had a couple of friends in college and we went to a mall to hang out, then we went to department store. So one of my girl friends picked some clothes and wanted to try it on, so we went to the fitting room and she fits 5 clothes, but because of the size of her body it didn’t fit at all and she wanted me to try it. In my case there is nothing wrong in trying, but the thing is I won’t buy those clothes, but they insist, so I try it on and they want me to go out of the fitting room and they too pics. of me and the salesladies are staring at us. After that we returned the clothes, and left without buying anything. you know how many hours we had been doing that? 1 and a half hour, and it is so embarrassing in my part that I am stating every single detail now, haha. the result? TOTAL LAUGHING :)
• Go to the kitchen and eat something that is not meant to be eaten alone. I went to the kitchen and open the fridge and ate a piece of tomato, mom said “why were you eating a tomato?” I just replied, I just wanted to make a DIY ketchup on my mouth, mom goes HUH?? haha XD
• Go on the balcony and keep shouting ‘I LOVE YOU’ to any person who passes by This is so embarrassing,a group of guys although they are my friends from the neighborhood passed by, and I was shouting I love you to them, and they said “you gotta choose only one from us, which one?” and we laughed
• What was the worst thing you ever cooked or bake Rice, rice is so easy to cook for them, but I don’t know why I always turned rice to charcoal, haha weird but true, but anyways, I can handle cooking rice now

This is really soo random, but I had fun hoho XD

All about me in 80 questions

**BASICS**

• Name: Raynelle Reyes
• Nickname: Ar Ar (most of my friends call me this especially this college based on my initials R and R, but I much preferred spelling it this way)
• Rain (some other people uses this too, based on my name)
• Age: Just turned 17 this year
• Birthday: March 8, 1994
• Birthplace: Manila, Philippines (yes I’m a filipina)
• Current Location: Bulacan, Philippines
• Eye color: I know it’s black, but my friends insisted it is brown (don’t know)
• Piercings: before I had 3 piercings on my left ear and 1 on my right ear, but now I got 1 on both ears
• Tattoos: Nah!
• Boyfriend: H-A-D
• Siblings: I got 1 younger brother that I argue with most of the time

**FAVORITES**

• Color: Black, Pink and white (green? prolly)
• Music: I have lots of, it changes from time to time but prolly BEAUTIFUL by Bethany Dillon and all the songs made by the band Hey Monday
• Sport: Tennis and Badminton
• Holiday: Christmas and New Year
• Food: PiZZas, chocolates and ice creams
• Number: My fave is 15 ever since but when I got a boyfriend during the 15th day of a month and got broke up I just started hating it. So now my fave is NONE!
• Movie: I love watching different kinds of movies but I don’t know which one is my favorite
• Celebrity: for female it’s Angelina Jolie, she’s a very good actress, I love the way she acts on movies. for male it’s William Levy, why? He’s HOT!
• Place: anywhere as long as it is a beach
• Drink: WATER? I don’t drink but one thing I like drinking is water or chocolate drink
• Day of week: nothing in particular since everyday for me is the same except for Sunday, that would be the day that I hate. No need to ask =]
• Month: March, why? because I know my birthday is just around the corner, haha but also December because it is a BREAK.
• City: this is a weird one for me, city? I have no idea cause city are all the same, it is CITY!
• Animal: I very much love cats :) but I had a dog, I like dogs too but I love cats. R.I.P Jackie (my first pet)
• Time of day: before going to bed, I really feel energized before going to bed, perhaps my peak hours
• Smell: Another weird question for me, I don’t have any idea. Prolly anything as long as it is not that strong and not a bad smell or stinks. But I like the smell of a guy, the one that is fresh from the shower, it’s a turned on for me =]
• T.v Channel: If you are here in the Philippines then that would be GMA channel 7, and also I love watching discovery channel
• Song: Is there any diff between song and music? yes it has, but anyways, I have lots of songs I know but prolly still BEAUTIFUL by Bethany Dillon and still songs by Hey Monday

**THIS OR THAT**

• Hugs or kisses: Hugs, I love kissing too but hug for me is just oh so sweet and I love hugging people may it be girl or guy =]
• Pepsi or coke: uhm, I don’t like coke nor pepsi, I like root beer, but I preferred coke over pepsi
• McDonalds or burger king: Mcdonalds
• Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate of course, I’m a certified chocoholic, chocolates never run out in our fridge =]
• Lover or fighter: Love of course
• Friends or family: Sorry to say this but I preferred friends, but I love my family, it’s just that I preferred friends
• Love or money: Let’s be practical, MONEY!! but if I have money without love then no thanks, weird huh!
• Listen to someone talk or talking: Listen to someone, but every time I listened to someone for over an hour I eventually get bored so I do the talking, my mouth won’t just sit on my fucking face and behave LOL
• Personality or looks: Personality, (but still looks like a human being) I don’t need a hot, gorgeous, handsome guy with a fucking asshole personality.
• Magazines or comics: Comics especially MANGAs
• Pop Star or word Up: Pop stars but I don’t read this kind of magazines for me it’s GROSS!

**LOVE**

• Are you in love? man, I am ALWAYS in love (haha) well, I am in love with a particular person right now, one sided love you could say
• Have you ever been in love? Sure!
• Do you believe in love at first sight? nope, I believe in love at first BITE. Haha, No I mean, how could you say you are already in love when you first see a person, I just don’t get it, probably you are attracted but not love, cause eventually you’ll be in love after being attracted.
• Longest relationship? What kind of relationship? if it is for girl-girl friendly relationship then it would be 10 years.(but it is only a friendly relationship, i don't date girls) If it is girl-boy exclusive relationship then that would be 6 months I guess. If it is girl-boy one sided love then I guess it would be 3 years. HAhaha.
• Kiss on first date? nope. I didn’t have a kiss on my first date
• Ever cheated on someone? (be honest) Well, I don’t know if this is cheating but maybe yes. I had a boyfriend, we are in an exclusive relationship but deep down in my heart I like someone else, but I didn’t go out with anyone while I am still in an exclusive relationship.

**RANDOM**

• Do you do drugs? Nope, I don’t need it since everyday I act like I take drugs haha, craziness is my sickness HOHO!
• Do you drink? Nope, but I drink in some occassions
• DO you have any regrets? Sure!
• Want to get married? of course, sure
• Want kids? yes, probably one or two
• Do you believe in yourself? I believe in my own capacity but sometimes I think that I still lack of something
• Last movie you saw at the movies? it’s been months since I watched a movie, I can’t remember but I know for sure it was good, I appreciate watching movies
• Biggest fear? REJECTION, shall I spell it?  R-E-J-E-C-T-I-ON
• Most Missed memory? High school days
• how do you want to die? nightmare, I guess it is less pain ( but please I want to live more)
• Do you get along with your parents? not really
• First thought waking up? WHAT TO DO!
• Can you handle the truth? nope but as much as possible I face the truth
• Do you swear? sometimes
• Have you ever passed out? Sure
• Do you have a pet? YES! A cat
• Do you party? uhm.. let’s see, if I am with friends, having some fun then sure
• Do you get good grades? here’s the deal, I can have whatever grades I want to, so I get good grades but when LAZINESS attacks and boredom and lack of focus, I get a terrible bad grades.

**Do you believe in**

• GOD? sure
• Religion? sure, my religion is roman catholic but I don’t believe that religion can help you succeed in life, it only guides you but all the work is in your hands
• Aliens? No
• Ghost? Yes
• After life? YEs
• Myself? yes
• Karma? yes
• Magic? no

**In a guy**

• Eye color: Doesn’t matter as long as he have a nice eyes especially the kind of eyes that you’ll melt down whenever it stares at you
• Hair color: hmm.. the natural hair color of that guy, I don’t like guys who color their hair not if they have already white hair
• Short or long hair: Short and a clean cut
• Height: 5’7 - 5’11 ; 170cm-180cm I like and adore tall guys, even if you are such a cutie pie but if you are short, then no thank you!
• Piercings or tattoos: No piercings and no tattoos 
• Just cute or sexy: Sexy
• Hobbies: anything cool and we share some common interests
• One girl man: OF COURSE!

Random things from a random person

I am nowhere near perfect

I eat when I am bored

I fall for boys easily

I am vulnerable to believing lies

I'm hoping that one day I won't need a fake smile

I live by quotes that explain what exactly I am going through

I make up excuses for everything

I have best friends and enemies

I have drama and memories

And that's life

LIVE IT, LOVE IT.... LEARN FROM IT

The Nightmare that I am going through

LITTLE THINGS THAT YOU MIGHT LIKE TO KNOW
Name: Ar Ar Reyes (just call me in that name)
Age: seventeen
Birth Date: 8th day of March 1994

 First things first this blog is just some things that I wanted to share to those who frequently read my blogs and wanted to know more about me. In this blog you will know what kind of person I am and what are the things that I want and what kind of life I have. Literally I don't have any great things that I have to share with you but still I wanted to share some, especially for those persons who have a life almost the same as mine, maybe my life will be something that you could gain inspiration from. (I doubt it)

 I was born on a private hospital in Manila on March 8, 1994, I was raised by both Filipino parents. Because my mom is a working girl and so is my dad, the only one who left to raise me is my grandmother, so technically half of my life is guided by my grandmother which is I am very grateful to her. She really took care of me with so much care even though I am hard as a rock.

 After some years passed by, I grew as a smart kid with my own perception of life but who doesn't know how to have her own decision. So in short I am a dependent in some ways and also independent in some other ways.

 As I grew up, we moved to a place where I stayed half of my childhood years and it is in a province called Bulacan. As for me, the way I live in Bulacan is much more comfortable than living in the city. So I studied in Bulacan for a couple of years and after a tragic incident that happened in my life, I and my little brother transferred to another place again and it is in a province called La Union.

 I spent almost my highschool years in La Union with my little brother and my grandmother, at first it is really hard to adjust since I am used to living with my parents but since my grandmother is also there, I finally gained  a peace of mind. So while staying there I learned to adjust and lived by myself. Doing things for yourself without the help of the others. Some people may already get used to it, like doing some tough chores at home. But since I grew up with a maid helping us it is basically hard to adjust. You know, like studying while doing some other tasks. So after so many years I finally graduated in my high school life. Though they call me a smart kid I didn't get to the over-all top, why? It is because I find school so easy that I don't care about having an honor, well for some they really need it especially in college so that they could have a scholarship, but as for me, I could be on the top and have an honor but it is just that my laziness and my unwillingness to study hard are controlling me, so that's the reason why I didn't get into the topnotcher.

 So when college life came my mom wanted me to get back to the Bulacan and study my college course in city. So I transferred again back to Bulacan and attended my first year college in a university in Quezon city. The troublesome part is that I am taking course which is not the course that I wanted to take so my first semester is really a crap and when second semester came I finally took the course which is I like but the thing is something stupid came up again which ruined my second semester and now this coming second year of college I really wonder if I could have a good semester or having a crap one again. I guess studying is really not in my interest, I mean people need to study because most of them think that they could have a better life if they have a bachelor's degree or if they are an educated person. Well, I know that it is really nice to have a degree but that doesn't guarantee to have a better life since there are lots of graduated students that still looking for jobs or work.

  Having a better life and a better future are what most persons want to have, but you cannot just reach it after you study, I mean there are some person who have a better life even though they are just college drop outs, but I am not saying that people shouldn't study, I am just pointing out what's the purpose of studying so many years and attending so many subjects that doesn't guarantee a better life. I mean what's the point of learning all about Rizal when in fact outside, in the real world we wouldn't buy something or do things that rizal is included. You wouldn't buy a candy and tell the store owner or the seller "hey can I buy a candy with a rizal on it? or "Can I buy a candy that is eaten by Rizal" so for me it is literally funny to attend subjects frequently and continuously for about 10 years tackling a subject that we can't use in the real world.

 So enough with the word STUDY since I know I am really not interested on it.

 Then now I am in Bulacan taking up a course about business and I just hope so with my left determination I could finish this degree.

 So my life is all focus in studying because that is what my parents dream for me, that is what they want me to achieved, but besides studying I want to have more interesting things to learn and to achieve. Things that I more interested with and things that worth my time.

 So this is my life, I am just an ordinary girl who also wants to have a better life and a better future.